Conflicted
I am the darkness
I am pain
I am hurt
I will destroy you
You only have to let me in
You wont even know when its happened
I am the thief in the night
I am the smile you trust
I am the lurking source of all disruption
The moment you doubt
The instance you fear
The first sign of hesitation
I have protruded
I have slipped under the door
Like a slithering plume
I am in your mind
I occupy your thoughts
I develop into Anger
Hatred
I am confusion
I am anxiety
I am your FEARS
I will linger
You may search for faith
For futile acts in stillness
Meditation
Prayer
Hope
Seeking healers
Energy workers
Friends
Pastors
I will never leave
You may press me down
You may hold me back
But with every attempt at suppression
You only consider me more and more
The act of denying me
Working through me
You only allow me to enter again
I am you
The part you wish didn’t exist
You bring to life with every breath
You will never learn to live with me
In the act of ridding yourself of yourself
You only lose
You spiral
You’re deeper now
The walls close in
Crouching in your closet
Weeping in your shower
Afraid to close your eyes
Weak
As all humans are
I can only exist with you
You can focus on anything else as long as you like
Here I am
Here I stay
Here I Live
I am you
I am your fears
Overcome me you can not
Only in death do we part
You must live knowing i am here
Knowing I am waiting for you to fall
Think of me and you hold yourself down
The perfect host
Some of you want me
Some of you need me
Some of you have given in to me
If you could only treat me the way you treat hope
I would rarely show up
I would be welcomed but couldn’t stay
I would have no room to flourish
Yet Here I Am
Your Fear
Name me
Hold me
Push me
But as long as I occupy your focus
You have lost
Here you are doubting
Filled with sadness
Loneliness
Ahh please Drink Drink Drink
Your door is cracked open after just a few
Invite me in
You seek to forget with alcohol
It only serves me
Fool
Occupying you is boring
You make it to easy
You don’t fight at all anymore
Too afraid to live anyway
Too scared to end your own thoughts
To cowardly to take your own life
Vile beast
Pathetic creature
I am you
I Am your Fear